February, almost over

February book is over!!
yes!!

I finished it 2 days ago, and I also started my March book, Muhajababes.

It's an investigation by a British BBC reporter about Arab youths... trying to find the things that influence our lives.
Her journey included Beirut, Amman, Cairo, Dubai, Kuwait, and Damascus.
So far it is very enjoyable.. apparently she spent most of her time in Lebanon. I don't know if the ideas she got about Arabs from Lebanese people are genuine or not, since most of the Lebanese population don't consider themselves, but Phoenicians.
Will see.. the book will tell...

As for the other February resolutions:

• I managed to top the numbers of my blog entries in this month, and had only 1 entry in Arabic, the rest in English, which is very good.
• For the Al-Ameen project, finished the data- entry phase! but i need to start the real accounting stuff!! so I got myself a book that would help me through with that.
  It is so pathetic that the thing that I need most right now with my work is the thing I learnt least in college..

Will write down March resolutions very soon..
I can't believe the first 2 months of the year are over so soon!

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I haven't blogged in a while..

Hope that February's resolution isn't falling apart..

I'm almost done with Angels and Demons.. finally managed to get hooked!! i read about 100 pages yesterday... haven't done that in a loooong time!!
but it was fun

Next week is off mostly because of the National Day/Liberation Day holiday (25/26)
It's gonna be a long weekend, from Thursday till Monday. So I suggested to my family that we go somewhere like Oman or Dubai.. or at least rent a chalet here and just hang out.. Dad didn't seem to mind, but my brothers were totally against it.. I have no idea why..
It was a try..

right now I'm in love with this band called Panic! at the disco.
it's a mix of alternative rock, to techno, to emo, to many kinds of stuff..
and the nicest thing about it is the track names
they have no relation whatsoever to the actual songs!
makes it pretty cool..
my current favorite one is "The only difference between martyrdom and suicide is press coverage"
very objective i think..

Valentine's

Ok here is my view regarding valentine's day:

It sucks!

Enough about the argument that states that love shouldn't be celebrated on a single day and should be celebrated throughout the year.. I've been hearing it ever since I learnt about Valentine's Day.... lets talk about other stuff:

For single (or lonely) people, Valentine's Day is a constant reminder of their situation they are trying to ignore or forget or not ready to face.
It is also a reminder that time is running out and they should start doing something with their lives.

It's painful for people who spent the year before with a beloved one, and then lost that person for a reason or another.

It sucks for people who get along with everybody.. have loads of friends, but never a "special" person in their life..

It hurts for a single person whose all friends are married or hooked, and s/he spends the day alone.

It is stealing in the broad daylight:
A decent rose here in Kuwait on a normal day costs about 500 Fils (less than 2$US). However, on Valentine's Day, the same rose we are talking about costs over 2KD (over 6$ US).
This is what i call a rip off

I'm 23.. I've never done anything special on Valentine's Day
I got my first rose when I was 18. It was from a waiter at Chili's cos it was the restaurant's policy to give out roses to girls only. I was with my best friend on that day, but only I was the first-timer. To top it off, the rose was wilted.

My second and last rose was from my best friend Brian. He gave me my rose, and then he left to spend the rest of his day with his girlfriend. Well at least that rose wasn't wilted *sigh*

I still don't hate valentine's day.. I'm just irritated.
Who knows? maybe by next year, I will have a special one around, and won't have to complain anymore.
btw, this is what I told myself last year. But hope is what keeps us alive!

Hope that today was a great day for everyone who reads this.

خوري روسي

هي الغنية كان ابي يغنيلي ياها لما كنت صغيرة

وغناها لكل اخواتي

ولهلأ كل ما بيجي لعنا ولد صغير بيغنيلو ياها

كان في

خوري روسي

عندو قطة

حلوة كتير

بيحبا كتير

جاب الخوري

شقفة لحمة

حطا عالطاولة

اجت القطة

اكلت اللحمة

شافا الخوري

ضربها الخوري

ماتت القطة

زعل الخوري

حفرلا حفرة

طمرها فيها

كتب على قبرا

كان في

خوري روسي

عندو قطة

حلوة كتير

بيحبا كتير

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وبتضل الغنية تعيد حالها لحتى ينعس الولد او يديق خلقو او يحفظها ويلتهي فيها.. بتضل احسن من الفعي

مدري شو ذكرني فيها

هي الغنية تريد مارك لأبي

كلو ولاد عمومي حافظينها.. غنية عمنا الصغير

طفولة بعيدة كتير.. وقريبة كتير

Nothing much...

I'm trying to find something to talk about but it seems like nothing wants to cross my mind at all..

I usually get the ideas suddenly and I either just scribble them on a paper of type them using my phone or anything.. but these days.. I feel so blank..

I recently discovered that when I'm in a flat mood, I get the best inspirations! and I can express myself best, cos I have a gazillion thoughts in my mind struggling to come out.
But when I'm in a normal mood (which doesn't happen very often) I become totally blank..

I think this is where "twisted" comes from no??

The forum childish crisis is still going on.. I couldn't help but participate there when I am not supposed to.. again!
so childish of me too not to stick to my word!

oh well..

I'm in chapter 42 in Angels and Demons... I think I'm a little behind if I want to finish it before the end of February that is..
but what can I do? so far, it didn't get me so hooked to it the way The DaVinci Code did..
However, it's gonna be my new challenge!
I shall finish it before March so I can read something else.
Cos my brother got this book called "Muhajababes" that I really want to check out asap.

I think that would do for now..
It's too early to talk about valentine's.. although it is all over the place, but I still have 2 days..

maybe the day after tomorrow..
My next mission: to find something to blog about before the Valentine's blog entry..

yes.. very twisted!!!
:D

Children!!

I'm so angry with myself
I know I shouldn’t have participated in the forum today with all the stupid problems going on… but I couldn’t help it.. I only saw myself typing replies and sending

Stupid children

I wasted my afternoon over a stupid argument, to make my point clear, and in the end, the "brightest" one of all concludes that I'm a butt kisser!!

I mean what do people expect from a free forum moderated by 1 person only who lives all the way across the ocean? Where the forum's policy is freedom of speech and the policy of the members is "attack the moderator"
It's so freaking repulsive to go there nowadays seriously…

The most disgusting thing is the "gangs" policy everyone is taking..
If you are not part of the gang, then you are not to be talked to, and if you are close to those people, your topics shall not be discussed.
It's exactly like school.. feels like no one had grown up ever since.

The annoying part is, this forum has been a part of my life for the past 5 years, and I have been participating there ever since. It was never this bad or this stupid. Aside from the religious debates, everyone seemed to be living in harmony.. they used to joke around and make fun all the time
But once members start including personal relationships and start communicating with the others based on that, they start to lose their balance.

I'm putting participation in that stupid forum on hold just until things go steady again.
Who knows, I might even never go back there again.

English English English

Yes it is official..

I'm slowly forgetting my English

I was chatting with a friend a while ago, and I was telling him something, and I had to integrate Arabic with English, and I wrote this sentence that made no sense whatsoever!!

So I re-wrote it all in English, and I sent it. He understood what I was trying to say.
I re-read what I have already sent, and I swear if I read that sentence somewhere I would be on my back laaaaughing!!
It had a gazillion error in it!

I don't want mean to sound like bi***, honestly I don't make fun of people in public, I judge them in silence, and I never share my judgments.
Especially when it comes to things like second/third language or religion… etc, I just don't like the fact that people smug around with something they don't know!

Anywhooo..

My English!!
Wondering were it disappeared to..
Yea well… people usually maintain their knowledge levels, they don't fall behind…
Arrgg!

I just gotta practice then… continue practicing and make less silent judgments.

me and my intuition

I really should start believing in my intuition.. At least give it more credit

I really should start believing in my intuition.. At least give it more credit

The following situation happened more than once in the forum where I write:
Sometimes when I'm writing I get carried away and might end up writing something I don't wanna say. So I just rewrite it (thank God for the miracle of drafts and "undo")
When rewriting, I might halt at a word and think, maybe I shouldn't leave it.. Maybe I should write something else. This is what my intuition tells me.
However, being the hard-headed I am (i still haven't met any soft-headed person in my life yet btw), so yea instead of listening to my intuition, I just leave the word I stopped at, and post the comment as it is..
Once I start receiving comments on the post, at least one comment should be about that word I halted at!!
And most of time, I expect the nature of comment, and who would post it!

But I just don't stop!!

So why don't I start believing in my intuition?
Here is the reason:
Because whenever I give it a chance and start believing, it decides to fail me!
As if it is not up to that responsibility anymore and it freaks out once it is given that trust and doesn't know what to with it, so it just drops it and shatters it into pieces
Failing me.

Well, I can handle some stupid comments every now and then. I know which comments are to be given a smart answer and which shall be ignored.
And online u can always edit or undo or rewrite stuff
But in real life, you have to be witty enough to handle such comments.
Sometimes people say the nastiest things when they don't mean it. Especially when they r angry. And that tardy intuition always comes in while u r saying those words, when its too late.

No intuition, go to hell..
All I need is to be quick and smooth.. And that would do.

Note: I didn't proof-read my entry, so please be merciful

Follow up

So, I finished my January book (Horrraaaay!!!)
It was eleven minutes by the way...

Great story I think... easy going style, a bit mushy but very real...

And it is very true how all women know what they should and shouldn't do, but eventually fall apart, and do the things they shouldn't do, while they still know that they shouldn't.

February's book is going to be Angels and Demons by Dan Brown. No I still haven't read it yet. I know I'm way behind, but I'm catching up.
And I already started reading, it seems interesting...

What else?

I hate watching the news nowadays...
Actually I always have, but these days the tension is unbelievable.
Beside domestic wars, we have the Global Warming to worry about now, lack of rain and natural resources...

I'm gonna stay optimistic. The human being is an amazing creature, he just keeps surviving regardless of the circumstances... adapting is in his nature.

So we will survive

Goals and Resolutions

This post was written on January 28th, 2007, but is posted today due to laziness…


The word "resolution" is always associated with the end of the year, when we start doing our calculations, to make sure that we have fulfilled our goals our if we did something different in the past year, and to promise ourselves to change in the upcoming year, to quit smoking or drinking or gossiping or cheating or ignoring or trusting or just change.

Because change is refreshing.

So why wait until the beginning of the year to decide on our resolutions?
I don't think it's fair to make a promise to ourselves to change throughout the year then probably completely forget about it in February then remember it in December when we recall that we didn't fulfill it.

I have decided to have "incremental" resolutions, incremented to 12 months.

So, each month will have its own resolution and they will be, hopefully, maintained throughout the year.
It no longer can be called resolutions I think… maybe a set of goals.
It doesn't matter, as long as they are not forgotten throughout the year.

So, for the rest of January, I should finish the book that I'm reading and decide on what book I shall start reading in February.

February,

• I shall regulate my working hours, and stick to them.
• Finish the stupid Ameen project that I have been working on since forever.
• Read the book that I will decide on by the end of January.
• Try to write at least one blog entry in English every day. I'm scared of losing my second language due to mal practice and excess communication with Chinese people (no offense to Chinese people, but seriously, it's really hard to communicate with them!!)
  
  I think that's enough for now…