Insomnia

Insomnia is one of the worst condition any human being can go through...
You are basically all consumed throughout the day.. all tired and worn out. you take a warm shower, swallow an Advil or two, you even drank that milk that you hate so much, then you jump into your warm cozy bed... the surrender to sleep
However... sleep doesn't want you!
You are waiting for it
But it's just not happening!

You try to open your eyes, and they open up like its broad daylight!
You try to get up to do something since you are already awake... but, you have 0 concentration
So what do you do? you just stay in bed... and wait... as simple as that..
It could be an hour, it could be two, it could be all night long...

What's even worse than not being able to sleep is sleeping and not knowing it...
It's like having this little tiny processor in the back of your brain that keeps on running even when you are asleep, and its functionality is preventing you from recognizing that you are already asleep!
When does it hit you?
When the alarm goes off at 7 so you have to go to work. You then realize that you need these extra five minute of sleep.. just those five minutes and they will do... and before you know it, you are deep asleep! why? cos you have to get up!!
Luckily, you will have your mother or sister around to check on you and make sure that you're up.
What's even funnier than that, is during this stolen snooze, you think that you are wide awake, you've already brushed your teeth, had your coffee, and even got into your car! that's when your mom's voice comes in to tell you that you are still in bed, and you were only dreaming!

I had another insomniac night last night... they are all accompanied with a bad/annoying dream..
When I got up at 7 I had second thoughts about going to work... Then I brushed them away.. cos the snooze wont do... and once I'm up, I will be wide awake.
And I was!

In a cranky mood...
It got better though..
I grabbed a suit of mine that I haven't wore in 2 years cos the pants were abit too tight...
Today when I tried them on... they fitted perfectly!! even a bit loose!!
Gave me a great feeling of achievement! *Girly moment here*
*sigh!*

Heard the news this morning
Israel pulled off its troops from Ghaza Strip..
It's a victory...
Just hoping they didn't leave anything behind...
The shredded grieving families are enough

It's going to be a good week!